I hate being mad at myself. It's awful. Right now I am mad at myself for choosing a module I'm finding really hard. I thought I was doing well and I was enjoying it until I got my mid-term grade back. That's the worst, when you've worked hard and you're proud of yourself and then DOOM! not such a good grade. I used to be a legal secretary and I know all this law stuff, or at least I thought I did. I'm so unmotivated now; I'm making the effort, but I'm scared that it won't be enough again. What happens then? I'm such a kid, being scared upsets me a lot.
This situation reminds me of a bit of a song from Jesus Christ Superstar, called Gethsemane. It goes like this:
"Then, I was inspired
Now, I'm sad and tired
Listen, surely I've exceeded expectations
Tried for three years, seems like thirty
Could you ask as much from any other man?"
Random, I know, but that's how I feel.
Anyway, time to go back to the studies. I hate law, it was made to be broken, not analyzed - like Shakespeare. Read and enjoy, don't analyze. The whole attitude behind exams is obsolete. Life is simple, so why do people make it complicated for themselves? And more to the point, why do they complicate it for other people?